When we had Joel, I thought my heart could never ever be as full as the moment they laid him on my chest. I had dreamed of being a mom for so long and have always seen that as my life's goal. Watching him grow, my heart has grown with an ability to love that I never knew existed. Now to think that God would give his only son for me has an entirely different and much deeper impact for me. Just the thought brings me to tears! When this pregnancy started, as with the pregnancy with Joel, it wasn't easy. With my diagnosis of placenta previa, I was terrified of the impact on my health and feared that it would take me away from Joel. But God was so faithful and the previa was no longer an issue by 25 weeks. Still I didn't know exactly what a new child would bring. How could I love someone as much as I love Joel? And the moment they laid Jacob on my chest, I knew. I knew that God had once again grown my heart so that I could love more. I feel so blessed to have two beautiful, healthy boys and a husband who loves them and me. I couldn't ask for more. Today I was reminded of Hannah's story of praying for Samuel in 1 Samuel 1. Joel and Jacob, you have been much prayed for. Other than praying for Justin, all my life, I have never prayed with more tears as I have for you.
1 Samuel 1: As surely as you live, my lord, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the LORD. 27 I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD."
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